Venomous Fusion

She was seductive, a force consuming my lust.
Consuming my compliments as she smiles and blush.
She drove me to love her and I bought her a ring.
I wanted to show her that this was more than a fling.

He flashed me a smile, suiting his arrogant looks,
and at all the right moments, right words, right expressions.
But the ease at which he gave me that ring,
made me feel fooled by his game, me: an ignorant little thing?

This was more than a fling, she was something different.
She made my heart sing when our lips synced in position.
My love would part the sea's and bare the weight of the world.
For her love for me exceeded the way she made my toes curl.
As a mirror my reflection was her affection and commitment.
I presented this ring to what my life has been missin.

Though accepting to the call of my heart,
My mind couldn't help but wonder,
would he have cared,
If I were another.
If i were of his kind.
If I were with child.
What if? what if?
My mind was going wild.

Days creeped past and i sensed hesitation,
our wedding day approached and i grew nervous from waitin.
But at night i couldn't sleep for I sensed her second thoughts.
What if I was right and our love would hit the rocks.
What if she didn't want me and why would she even bother,
Will she leave me standing heart-broken at the alter.
My family's all excited and my mother filled with bliss,
Wedding around the corner receiving so many gifts.

Pretending to sleep, knowing he didn't,
All the stress turning me into a bridezilla,
but leave him at the alter? No, not an option.
Not to him, or his mom; I'd coil in revulsion.
In my dress i walked, a walk to remember,
smiling with every step, silently cursing my mind's continues questions,
He said 'yes i do' watching me with tender eyes:
Eyes full of...yes, I saw children...were they mine to be?
Or were these beauties of another?? So different from me?
"...your lawful and beloved husband" i heard
i said...i said...'yes.'
Hoping it was the right word.